Talia Carbis

A liberating Feeling…

Last Friday morning I went to work and I I can home again at about 9am. Already I had worked two hours, done the grocery shopping for luke and I, and picked up another shop of party supplies for mum.

It felt WONDERFUL to be coming up at such a ridiculously early time. There weren’t many people around on the streets and in their yards. They were at WORK. Where I would have been had I not had Uni later on in the day, and cooking to do for mum’s party both before and after that.

I felt so young, and lucky. It was such a liberating feeling to be walking around, moving, doing… STUFF at 9:30 in the morning! It reminded me of my Uni days. Waking up at 10am, trundling off to Uni, listening to my iPod on the way, writing letters to Luke in lecturers, and writing lesson plans in Tuitorials.

I sort of long for those days sometimes. But I guess only now that I’ve experienced it again…
But I love my job, and my eLearning, and I wouldn’t really go back to that… not now that I’ve experienced getting actual MONEY each week.

Other news is that Luke’s b’day went really well on Thursday night (wish I had my camera cord at work to share photos with you…), and mum’s party on Saturday night was a great success. More posts on both to come.

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Another Blog for Talia…

For those of you that have known me for a while will known that over my blogging history I have had numerous blogs, and one stage had three at the same time. Well, I feel like it’s time to stretch myself again, and so, I have revived one of these blogs, teaching talia.

The purpose of this blog is to document my experiences in e-learning. Either the things that I am doing, or the sites that give me great info, or the things i’ve learnt.

So, I would love any support you could give me. Just a comment here or there would be nice. And if you work with e-learning yourself, particular in the vocational education sector, then I would love to hear from you!!

Declutter Your Life??

I have just been challenged, and I don’t like it.

You know when you read something and you feel your heart beat a little faster, and your heart ’scrunches’ up a bit and you think, “Oh shit crap man, this is something I have to work on…” and you quickly leave the page/book/conversation/room and try to tell yourself that it’s not really a problem that YOU deal with, and besides, in your case, it’s not as bad as they are talking about.

But you know you’re really wrong. You know that you read/heard (whatever) this for a reason. So you go back to where you were and you listen a bit harder.

It happened to me today while reading this post. I hate to admit it, but I guess I do have a clutter problem. And as I was reading through the first bits I thought, “yeah, this is me” or “that is so true!”. I am not entirely sure if I will DO something about it, but I guess we will have to wait and see!!

Anyone going to give me some suggestions on a way to declutter? What’s worked for you??

Jellyfish

The other day I was stung by a jelly fish. It hurt, a lot. I am not recovered yet even though it was a few days ago.

This, of course, was a figurative jellyfish, and the wounds are not physical, but hurt just as much. The words came from someone they shouldn’t have. Someone who should build me up, not tear me down. I don’t think she MEANT to be mean, but she was, and it hurt just the same. It hurt more, because I can’t be angry, just sad.

My husband was stung as well, and he REALLY didn’t deserve it. He is loving and kind and helpful and talented and people should tell him that. People should KNOW him.

So I hurt from my own wounds and hurt from his. It is the first time I have been stung by this jellyfish, and I don’t like it. My reaction is to curl into a ball and never visit this person again. Never speak to them or write them letters/emails or invite them over.

But I will. I will because my reaction to being slapped on the cheek has to be to turn and give them the other. It’s HARD. VERY hard. And I am sad to say that I do it with contempt. I haven’t mastered true love (in a biblical sense). I am learning. But I thank God that he has given me the strength to see this person despite what they’ve done to me, and to love this person despite how they’ve hurt me.

I thank him that he has taught me not only something about myself, but also about them. I hope that one day I might be able to do something to help them to stop stinging people like they do. Because they are hurt themselves.

Exactly One Year

Because Carmen has started her blog on blogger, and I have to be logged in to that to comment, I’ve had a look at my old blogger blog. I realised that even though on taliacarbis.com it says that my first post was on the 17th of January, at Sunshine Talia I actually wrote it on the 13th of January.

The 13th of January 2007 was Rhys‘ 18th birthday. I have no idea why I was blogging then…

I know that I was bloggin before then, but I think this is when I first started to get serious.

I’ve been trying to search and find some older stuff, but I think I remember I deleted it all when some people said some really mean stuff to me about it.  I did find ONE entry though, from 2005, which is when I REALLY started to blog. It’s an old livejournal account, and there’s only one entry, but it’s embarrassing.

So Happy Birthday to me for this form of more frequent, less childish blogging!! Hurah!